for the first time in my life.....

First time aku jumpa dia masa aku kat camp site

First time aku tengok muka dia masa tengah kawad

First time bila aku tengok dia, aku jadi lebih bersemangat

First time aku jadi berani dan malu tak bertempat

First time aku buat keja gila sebab nak nombor dia sangat-sangat

First time aku buat miskol then dia terus nak angkat

Nasib baik aku letak fon cepat-cepat…eleh konon takutlah sangat….:-)

First time dia tanya aku napa suka dia sangat-sangat? (gila straight to the point!!)

Eh..perasan lah kau mamat!!!..dalam hati..boleh tak aku nak hide muka aku dengan cat??

First time dia approach aku bila kem tu dah lama tamat

Masa tu hati gembira bangat dan rasa nak jerit kuat-kuat..syok tak hingat!!

First time kami keluar dating masa aku tingkatan empat

First time aku gitau dia..jangan menggatal sangat..aku meluat!!

First time dia kata kat aku dia tak ada hal sebab dia sayang kat aku sangat-sangat!!!

Mak!!!!...aku rasa nak melompat!!!

First time aku sayang lelaki yang bukan mahramku sangat-sangat

First time aku minta doa kat Tuhan agar hubungan kita selamat dunia akhirat

Inilah kisah cinta aku dari mula sampai tamat

Kenangan terindah kita akan  sentiasa aku ingat

Walaupun hubungan kita sudah lama tamat…:-(

SAYANG..

Kamu…

Tatkala aku duduk berseorangan..

Aku teringatkan kamu..

Tatkala aku kesunyian…

Aku rindukan usikan mu..

Tatkala aku kesedihan..

Aku teringat pujuk rayu mu..

Kamu..

Ke mana hilangnya dirimu..

Ke mana hilangnya penglipur lara ku..

Ke mana hilangnya pemilik hati ku..

Kamu..

Yang pernah aku panggil sayang..

Yang selalu aku terbayang…

Dan yang selalu aku doakan...

Moga bahagia hidupmu..

Moga tercapai hasratmu…

Dan moga diberkati hidupmu..

Kamu..

Ini sahaja pesananku..

Jadilah dirimu seadanya..

Saat aku mengenalimu..

Di hari pertama kita berjumpa..

Dan terima kasih untuk segalanya…

Di waktu ini….aku sendirian

Melayani diri di kamar yang sunyi

Sunyi dari keriuhan

Sunyi dari suara-suara itu

Yang sentiasa menemaniku saban waktu

Tuhan..mengapa ku begini??

Mengapa aku jauh dari dirimu??

Mengapa aku tega mengejar cinta duniawi??

Daripada mengejar cintamu yang sejati

Tatkala aku gembira

Semuanya mendampingiku..

Tatkala aku bahagia

Semuanya menyayangiku..

Namun..

Tatkala aku terluka

Semuanya menjauhiku

Tatkala aku kecewa

Semuanya membenciku

Tuhan..bantulah aku bangun kembali

Mencari cintamu yang suci

Mencari rahmatmu yang kugersangi

Aku mungkin tak layak ke syurgamu

Namun aku juga tak sanggup menjejaki nerakamu

Terimalah taubatku

Terimalah diri hambamu yang kerdil ini.

Every human on this earth has the story of their lives. Similarly, I am. But now, I want to tell you about my campus life.  When I was in the semester 2, I have to follow the prescribed curricular activities by the university. All students from semester 1 to 3 must be involved in extra-curricular activities. What a crap!

 At first I intend to enter into badminton, but what could I do, the class is full. My friend asked me to join the drama. I had to because this is the last option. All of sudden she ran away when the lecturer gave us so much work even though it was our first class. I was a dumb-founded and became chaotic. I also thought of running away as many are doing so. But when I thought it again, why should I be running away from responsibility as a student? With a sense of panic, I entered the drama as well. Drama classes are held every Monday night and of course the lecturer has never cancel classes for no reason! Interesting is it?

 We were told by Mdm. Izwani Tahir to manage on our own theatre production. We need to make a play titled “Ayamku Sayang”. This is very challenging! Everything we need to prepare ourselves, including props, costumes and use our own money! Oh my money!  Training time also should be manage by own and sometimes I feel regret for participating in this drama. 

The news is surprising because I've got the lead role as a Turkey after been through the selection process. Very funny and feel like laughing aloud! I do not care to act normal because I have been on stage and face the public before. Am I too arrogant? Each person in the production should give full commitments because the marks will be given for the final exams. 

The schedule training was very packed which makes me feel that I’m a full time actress and not a student! What  nonsense!  I can’t go home on weekends, can’t focus in class and feel very tired when practiced repeatedly. In addition if there is a quiz, etc., it will be annoyed because I thought the brain busy memorizing the script. Well u know I’m  the main actress!

 But eventually I realized just how many new lessons and experiences that I have when  involved in this drama. I can make more friends which form a large family (actors and production crews), appreciate the time and gain knowledge through vocal classes. Indeed I am very grateful to Mdm. Izwani who helped to polish our talents until we could make a good performances.

 I, meant here is Ruzzaiza Binti Said. I came from  Pulau Pinang. My hobbies are reading and writing. I'm the youngest in my family. In Uitm Arau, I took a diploma in accountancy and now in the fourth semester. My ambition is to become a fire fighter pilot. May God bless me! Peace!

p/s: kalo grammar berterabor..sori lah yea..suke2 jew..yg pntg enjoy..(+_+)

akan tercapai kah?

terbang di awan biru..

Kadang kala apa yang diimpikan

Tak mampu dikecapi

Tak mampu dicapai

Walau kucuba dengan segala kudrat yang ada

Mungkin ada hikmah di sebaliknya

Namun hatiku tetap takkan berhenti mencuba

Selagi aku hidup

Selagi aku masih bernyawa

Akan kucapai ia

Akan kugenggam ia

Sehingga menjadi sebati dalam diriku

Harapan semua

Kini terletak di bahuku

Akan ku usaha lagi

Akan ku cuba lagi

Hingga aku dapat TERBANG di awan tinggi

Ditemani burung berkicauan

Dihampari lautan meluas

Dan merentasi gunung dan ganang

Doakanlah aku..

Percayalah pada diriku..

Akan kusahut cabaranmu

Menjadi pejuang Negara..

Pembela bangsa, agama dan negara

membelah awan dan merentasi lautan..

menikmati keindahan alam ciptaan Tuhan

I HATE YOU!

I HATE YOU FOR TEACHING ME LIKE THIS

I HATE U FOR TREATING ME LIKE THIS

I HATE YOU FOR BLAMING ME LIKE THIS

I HATE YOU FOR SAYING GET OUT

I HATE YOU BECAUSE YOU MAKE ME CRY

I HATE YOU BECAUSE YOU MAKE ME HURT

I HATE YOU BECAUSE NO ONE TEASED ME LIKE YOU DID

I HATE YOU BECAUSE YOU MAKE ME ANGRY

I HATE YOU BECAUSE YOU HUMILIATED ME

I HATE YOU BECAUSE YOU SHOUTED AT ME

I HATE YOU BECAUSE YOU ALWAYS POINTED TO ME

I HATE YOU BECAUSE YOU ALWAYS CONDEMNED ME

WHAT SHOULD I DO???

WHAT I HAVE DONE TO YOU???

WHY ARE YOU SO ARROGANT??

ACT LIKE A DIVA

YOU THINK YOU ARE GOOD ENOUGH?

YOU THINK YOU ARE PERFECT?

HUH…SORRY DEAR…

THAT IS ALL YOUR FANTASY

cinta yang abadi...

god's creation..

SALAHKAH AKU MENCINTAI SESEORANG?

SALAHKAH AKU MENYAYANGI SESEORANG?

SALAHKAH AKU MENYUKAI SESEORANG?

KENAPA PERASAANKU DIPERMAINKAN?

KENAPA HATIKU DITURIS LUKA?

KENAPA JIWAKU DISEKSA SEBEGINI RUPA?

BODOHKAH AKU MENGIKUT KATAMU?

TOLOLKAH AKU MENGIKUT PERINTAHMU?

BEGOKKAH AKU MENGIKUT NAFSU BUTAMU?

SEKARANG AKU SUDAH PASTI DENGAN JAWAPAN TERAKHIRKU…

TINGGALKAN KAU YANG TIDAK BERMAKNA

TINGGALKAN KAU YANG TIADA APA-APA ISTIMEWA

TINGGALKAN KAU PENCINTA GILA

ITU LEBIH BAIK UNTK DIRIKU

LEBIH BAIK HIDUP TANPA DIRIMU

KERANA AKU PERCAYA ADA HIKMAH DISEBALIKNYA

KERANA TUHAN TELAH MENCIPTAKAN MANUSIA SETIAP PASANGANNYA

KERANA TUHAN LEBIH TAHU SEMUA ITU

BIARLAH CINTAKU INI HANYA PADANYA

BIARLAH JIWA RAGAKU INI HANYA PADANYA

KERANA DIALAH PEMILIK CINTAKU YANG Satu

YANG KEKAL ABADI UNTUK SELAMA-LAMANYA..

may HE bless my life..