Saturday, April 16, 2011


Di waktu ini….aku sendirian
Melayani diri di kamar yang sunyi
Sunyi dari keriuhan
Sunyi dari suara-suara itu
Yang sentiasa menemaniku saban waktu
Tuhan..mengapa ku begini??
Mengapa aku jauh dari dirimu??
Mengapa aku tega mengejar cinta duniawi??
Daripada mengejar cintamu yang sejati
Tatkala aku gembira
Semuanya mendampingiku..
Tatkala aku bahagia
Semuanya menyayangiku..
Namun..
Tatkala aku terluka
Semuanya menjauhiku
Tatkala aku kecewa
Semuanya membenciku
Tuhan..bantulah aku bangun kembali
Mencari cintamu yang suci
Mencari rahmatmu yang kugersangi
Aku mungkin tak layak ke syurgamu
Namun aku juga tak sanggup menjejaki nerakamu
Terimalah taubatku
Terimalah diri hambamu yang kerdil ini.


Thursday, April 14, 2011




Every human on this earth has the story of their lives. Similarly, I am. But now, I want to tell you about my campus life.  When I was in the semester 2, I have to follow the prescribed curricular activities by the university. All students from semester 1 to 3 must be involved in extra-curricular activities. What a crap!

 At first I intend to enter into badminton, but what could I do, the class is full. My friend asked me to join the drama. I had to because this is the last option. All of sudden she ran away when the lecturer gave us so much work even though it was our first class. I was a dumb-founded and became chaotic. I also thought of running away as many are doing so. But when I thought it again, why should I be running away from responsibility as a student? With a sense of panic, I entered the drama as well. Drama classes are held every Monday night and of course the lecturer has never cancel classes for no reason! Interesting is it?

 We were told by Mdm. Izwani Tahir to manage on our own theatre production. We need to make a play titled “Ayamku Sayang”. This is very challenging! Everything we need to prepare ourselves, including props, costumes and use our own money! Oh my money!  Training time also should be manage by own and sometimes I feel regret for participating in this drama. 
The news is surprising because I've got the lead role as a Turkey after been through the selection process. Very funny and feel like laughing aloud! I do not care to act normal because I have been on stage and face the public before. Am I too arrogant? Each person in the production should give full commitments because the marks will be given for the final exams. 
The schedule training was very packed which makes me feel that I’m a full time actress and not a student! What  nonsense!  I can’t go home on weekends, can’t focus in class and feel very tired when practiced repeatedly. In addition if there is a quiz, etc., it will be annoyed because I thought the brain busy memorizing the script. Well u know I’m  the main actress!

 But eventually I realized just how many new lessons and experiences that I have when  involved in this drama. I can make more friends which form a large family (actors and production crews), appreciate the time and gain knowledge through vocal classes. Indeed I am very grateful to Mdm. Izwani who helped to polish our talents until we could make a good performances.

 I, meant here is Ruzzaiza Binti Said. I came from  Pulau Pinang. My hobbies are reading and writing. I'm the youngest in my family. In Uitm Arau, I took a diploma in accountancy and now in the fourth semester. My ambition is to become a fire fighter pilot. May God bless me! Peace!


p/s: kalo grammar berterabor..sori lah yea..suke2 jew..yg pntg enjoy..(+_+)


Wednesday, April 13, 2011

akan tercapai kah?


terbang di awan biru..


Kadang kala apa yang diimpikan
Tak mampu dikecapi
Tak mampu dicapai
Walau kucuba dengan segala kudrat yang ada
Mungkin ada hikmah di sebaliknya
Namun hatiku tetap takkan berhenti mencuba
Selagi aku hidup
Selagi aku masih bernyawa
Akan kucapai ia
Akan kugenggam ia
Sehingga menjadi sebati dalam diriku
Harapan semua
Kini terletak di bahuku
Akan ku usaha lagi
Akan ku cuba lagi
Hingga aku dapat TERBANG di awan tinggi
Ditemani burung berkicauan
Dihampari lautan meluas
Dan merentasi gunung dan ganang
Doakanlah aku..
Percayalah pada diriku..
Akan kusahut cabaranmu
Menjadi pejuang Negara..
Pembela bangsa, agama dan negara

membelah awan dan merentasi lautan..

menikmati keindahan alam ciptaan Tuhan

Thursday, April 7, 2011

I HATE YOU!


I HATE YOU FOR TEACHING ME LIKE THIS

I HATE U FOR TREATING ME LIKE THIS

I HATE YOU FOR BLAMING ME LIKE THIS

I HATE YOU FOR SAYING GET OUT

I HATE YOU BECAUSE YOU MAKE ME CRY

I HATE YOU BECAUSE YOU MAKE ME HURT

I HATE YOU BECAUSE NO ONE TEASED ME LIKE YOU DID

I HATE YOU BECAUSE YOU MAKE ME ANGRY

I HATE YOU BECAUSE YOU HUMILIATED ME

I HATE YOU BECAUSE YOU SHOUTED AT ME

I HATE YOU BECAUSE YOU ALWAYS POINTED TO ME

I HATE YOU BECAUSE YOU ALWAYS CONDEMNED ME

WHAT SHOULD I DO???

WHAT I HAVE DONE TO YOU???

WHY ARE YOU SO ARROGANT??

ACT LIKE A DIVA

YOU THINK YOU ARE GOOD ENOUGH?

YOU THINK YOU ARE PERFECT?

HUH…SORRY DEAR…

THAT IS ALL YOUR FANTASY